Category Archives: Alternative Care

Affordable Acupuncture for Veterans With Pain Issues

For release: Community acupuncture clinic brings health care reform to Tucson
As Congress debates and devises ways to reform our nation’s health care system, two local acupuncturists are already working to revolutionize alternative medicine in Tucson.

Keith Zabik and Larry Gatti say they founded Tucson Community Acupuncture last year in order to make acupuncture more affordable and accessible for residents in southern Arizona. The clinic, located at 2900 E. Broadway, is one of more than a hundred around the country that is using a “community model” where treatments are conducted in a large open setting and prices are set on a sliding scale starting as low as $15.

“Acupuncturists have been treating in this community-style for millennia in China,” Zabik says. “But in the U.S., private treatments are more the norm and typically cost $60 and up—a price most people can’t afford on a regular basis.”

Instead of treating people in isolated rooms and cubicles, the Tucson clinic treats people in a quiet, common area filled with comfortable recliners. The acupuncturists place hair-thin needles primarily in people’s hands, feet, legs, and arms in order to treat pain anywhere in the body and also to relieve a variety of common ailments.

“It’s like a big living room rather than a typical medical office,” Gatti says. “Many of our patients comment that the group setting is very relaxing and helps their healing.”

Since opening their doors in June 2008 the clinic has given more than 8000 treatments—with currently anywhere from 150 to 200 patient visits each week. Zabik notes that the clinic recently expanded their current operation by 700 square feet in order to provide additional treatment space and to be able to serve more Tucsonans.

“It’s bittersweet that we are one of the few businesses flourishing under such a bleak economy,” Zabik says. “I think it reflects how much people need affordable health care.”

In particular, Zabik and Gatti say they are reaching out to working- and middle-class Tucsonans who have never tried acupuncture before.
“A lot of people don’t realize how much acupuncture can help relieve pain, fatigue, and stress,” Gatti says. “Plus many who already know about the benefits would not try acupuncture due to the high cost. Our goal is to remove financial barriers and help people get better.”

Each time patients visit the clinic they are asked how much they wish to pay on the sliding scale of $15 to $35 (with a additional $10 fee for the first visit). Zabik emphasizes that the clinic does not ask patients to declare their salaries or require any proof of income.

“We recognize that people’s financial situations can change, even from week to week,” Zabik says. “Our sliding scale is one way to remove barriers and empower people in their medical choices—something that doesn’t seem to be happening right now in the current health care system.”

For more information contact:
Keith Zabik, L.Ac. or
Shoshana Mayden
(520) 400-5606 (cell)
(520) 881-1887 (clinic)
info@tucsoncommunityacupuncture.org

Related links:

Tucson Community Acupuncture website

http://www.tucsoncommunityacupuncture.org

Community Acupuncture Network

http://www.communityacupuncture.org

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Link to Yes! Magazine article: Acupuncture for All (Winter 2008)

http://www.yesmagazine.org/article.asp?ID=2108

This concept just makes sense. So many of us combat vets are living with pain so much of the time that we just write it off, or rely on medications that ultimately are not very friendly to the kidneys over the long haul. Before you just cave into your chronic pain game, try some of these tiny magic sticks for an hour or so. I did, and now I can probably reach under the Christmas tree for the gifts!

Merritt Retreat Center For Veterans of War

The following was sent to me by our Earth Mother, Betty Merritt who owns and operates a little slice of heaven known as the Merritt Center in Payson, Arizona. Many a man and woman have completed her tailor-made curriculum for healing from that ravages of war. There is simply nothing like it in all the 50 States. It heals. It works. It brings contentment,where there was once psychic pain. It brings love where there was once bitterness and rage. It brings intimacy where there was distrust.

I have had the great fortune to be part of this program for the past 5 years, and currently serve as a mentor and outreach contact for Southern Arizona.

The free retreats start up again in January. Let us know if you know of someone who may want to attend. We can arrange transportation too.

Payson Roundup

One-stop help for vets available at Web site
By Alexis Bechman

November 24, 2009

When soldiers return home from war, they leave behind one battlefield but often find themselves thrust onto a new battlefield — this time fighting enemies in their mind.

The last thing a veteran should have to worry about is where he will get medical care, housing, food or support. But after a recent veterans discussion at Gila Community College, a small group of veterans, therapists and counselors decided Payson combat veterans need more support.

Following that Nov. 12 panel discussion, 13-year Army veteran Miles Hanson, who only moved to town six months ago, stepped up and started a Web site, www.paysonveterans.org. The site gives local information pertaining to employment, housing, medical care, veteran groups, current events, self-help and most importantly, a place for support.

“A one-stop shop for returning veterans and those already here is a great benefit to local veterans and the community as well,” Miles said.

Betty Merritt, founder and owner of the Merritt Center, put on the discussion and said Payson needs to offer its veterans more assistance after they return home from war.

“There isn’t anywhere enough services that you deserve,” Merritt said.

Iraq and Afghanistan veteran Joseph Robinson and Vietnam veteran Kevin Whitaker said they have both dealt with post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) since returning home from war and found the bureaucratic process for getting help frustrating.

PTSD affects approximately 30 percent of soldiers who spend time in a war zone, according to the National Institutes of Mental Health. PTSD develops after exposure to a terrifying event or ordeal and can often last years.

Whitaker said he spent the last 22 years living alone in Pine dealing with his own version of PTSD.

“I avoided anything dealing with veterans,” Whitaker said to the group. “I didn’t even tell people I was a veteran. But now I would like to help other veterans.”

Beyond the Web site, the group agreed a bricks and mortar location for assistance would be great along with a veterans advocate for Rim Country veterans.

Miles said he would also like to create a business card with basic information about services that could be placed in businesses around town.

Most importantly, veterans need to feel that the community supports them and there is a place to go for help, Merritt said.

“There is a sense that the community expends little energy at the individual level with veterans,” Merritt said. “There is a need to expand the therapeutic community’s understanding and support of the needs of veterans.”

When people go off to war, they are programmed to be soldiers. When they come back, they need to be deprogramed, she added.

“If we don’t recognize that these people need help, we have reactive outbursts,” she said, pointing to the recent shooting at Fort Hood.

Another case hit closer to home, a February standoff involving a veteran and Payson Police.

On Feb. 1, Gulf War veteran Michael Gene Robinson, 52, began a nine-hour standoff by barricading himself inside his home and shooting at police officers.

Talking with police negotiators, Robinson said that the officers in front of his house were Iraqis and therefore his enemy. Robinson eventually told negotiators he was suffering from PTSD. Eventually Robinson surrendered and no one was injured.

Although Army Reserve sergeant Ken Moorin was never violent like Robinson, he was diagnosed with PTSD after he returned from Baghdad in 2004. Moorin suffered panic attacks that were especially debilitating during thunderstorms. Seeking release, Moorin attended Merritt’s free retreat for veterans in Star Valley.

“I felt a sense of peace being with other veterans,” Moorin said. “Talking was so helpful because there is so much anger and sadness.”

“It has to go somewhere so it might as well be health,” he added.

Merritt founded the non-profit Merritt Center in 1987 to offer renewal and empowerment workshops.

Spread over four weekends, veterans work through a series of activities including trauma-release exercises, which allow veterans to release tension stored in the sciatic nerve during combat.

Merritt was inspired to start the Merritt Center after experiencing her own release during a massage. At the time, Merritt was a successful executive with a large corporation.

“An hour into the message I started breathing differently and I felt a white light in my body,” she said. “It said ‘Let go’ so I quit my job the next week.”

Not knowing what she was going to do, Merritt meditated on an answer and saw fields of pansies. In August 1986, Merritt started a cross-country drive looking for the field of pansies she had envisioned. After 36,000 miles, Merritt ended up at the lodge in Star Valley, where she found a field of Johnny jump-ups blooming.

At the time, a doctor was using the center as a retreat for cancer patients. In 1987, Merritt took it over.

For the last five years, Merritt has offered retreats free for veterans.

“So often they come back and try to numb the pain through either alcohol or other stuff,” she said. “We don’t just shake it off so we need to learn how to release it.”

The first two weekends of the retreat involve bonding with other veterans who have gone through the program.

“A talking circle is introduced in the first session and used throughout the program to provide the foundation for creating trust. With others in the circle acknowledging their traumatic experiences the vet is willing to explore his/her own and before the circle ends or definitely before the first weekend ends, the vet is willing to share a piece of the experienced trauma,” she said.

At the end of each weekend, veterans are given activities to practice at home.

During the third weekend, veterans let go of the traumatic event during a Native American sweat lodge ceremony. During the sweat, Merritt said she keeps the door open more than it is closed.

At the end of the sweat, some veterans exit the lodge feeling reborn.

After letting go of the trauma, veterans replace it with something positive, Merritt said.

During the final weekend, veterans create new life goals. In the past, one veteran expressed a desire to write a book and another wished to give whale tours.

Whatever the dream, Merritt encourages veterans to follow through.

“I am living proof of making your dreams come true,” she said.

Visit the www.merrittcenter.org for the free online workbook, Basic Training for Life, a self-help program for returning veterans.

Originally published at: http://www.paysonroundup.com/news/2009/nov/24/onestop_help_vets_available_web_site/

The Other Insurance Issue; The Sad Hypocritical One

Following is a letter forwarded to me by a local combat veteran of the Marine Corps. His name has been deleted, but he has given permission to publish his petition for explanations for the declination of life insurance as a result of having a PTSD diagnosis. ( Note. Since this was posted the author has elected to share his name. It is Pete Bourret. He is a combat veteran of the Marine Corps who served in Vietnam.)

I am familiar with this very sad fact of life. I am equally conversant with its prevalence and the gross lack of justice involved. The impunity embedded in our nations Insurance industry is soon to become a national disgrace. The irony of the fact that a warrior can defend his/her nation and its system of capitalism and in turn not be qualified for life insurance, is beyond comprehension.

Someone, somewhere, has created some bogus science that states that Post Traumatic Stress shortens ones life span. This veteran is asking to see proof of this assertion. I am asking to see studies, from either the National Institute of Health or the VA, that indicate this confabulation.

Can you imagine the impact on a young soldier with a family when they learn that the mental health care they received on the heels of war is preventing them from protecting their very own family’s finances. I see rage on the horizon. I see class action law suits. And worse, I see the myriad of caring outreach programs at Vet Centers and VA clinics backfiring when the word travels that you are sealing off your future financial options. Who do these folks think they are? Maybe we should just draft all executives in the insurance industry first.

So the citizen soldier who is wounded in war is rendered incapable of being a full citizen in the country they just upheld. Is there a more poignant hypocrisy to be found?

We will be re-visiting this open wound in the veteran community over the next several months. Possibly, the parent company of the Citizen, Gannett, can help us out with a feature article in USA Today, which is known for its veteran and military coverage. Or are they too owned by the Insurance Industry?

November 11, 2009

Pruco Life
PO Box 8660
Philadelphia, PA 19176-8660

Denise Holmgren
Vice President, Underwriting:

This letter is in response to your companies response to my request for specific information, which I have requested on multiple occasions yet have failed to receive; a copy of your original letter will not suffice.

Please advise me if I should conclude that your determination of my uninsurability was based on my Post Traumatic Stress Disorder diagnosis in general. I ask this because I have repeatedly requested the specific information (three times) that you utilized in your determination; however, I only received several hundred pages of my VA mental health records without any specific details. Let me be as clear as I can be: I expect you to submit to me the specific language that caused your organization to draw the conclusion that I am not an appropriate candidate for life insurance.

This is my last request for this information that you have an obligation to provide to me in a timely manner. I find it ironic that I am writing this letter to your organization on Veterans’ Day, yet it seems that your company fails to honor veterans who served and became casualties of war. The fact that your organization believes that a veteran with a PTSD diagnosis is a poor candidate for a life insurance policy shows that there is great ignorance about this diagnosis within your organization. Had you bothered to check with my psychiatrist because of a concern, you would have discovered that I am much more than the basic notes that he wrote. You were too busy to do that because we know that the business of American business is the bottom line. For veterans like myself, when I volunteered to serve as a combat Marine in Vietnam in 1967 and 1968, my bottom line was to defend your freedom and to protect my fellow Marines. I guess our values do not coincide.

In closing, I ask you to re-evaluated your process for determining insurability in the area of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Regardless, it only makes sense that potential recruits to the Armed Forces should be made aware through full disclosure that serving is also hazardous to their insurability should they be traumatized by of combat. As a retired English teacher with too much time on his hands, I will gladly set the educational process in motion. I think it is time that people learn how your organization actually “supports” the troops.

Happy Veterans’ Day,

Peter Bourret/USMC

A Journey Of Healing And Renewal For Returning Vets

Well over a million troops have served in Iraq and Afghanistan since the advent of, “Shock and Awe” in March of 2003. A recent study by the VA has indicated that approximately 30% of the returning combat veterans are experiencing post traumatic stress disorder upon returning to civilian life. Most of these are young men and women are the future of our communities and our country. If these young and some not so young, as we have seen a much larger population of career soldiers and Marines in this conflict, are not diagnosed soon after coming home they frequently turn to substance abuse and behaviors that may interrupt relationships with family, friends and superiors. The Vietnam experience witnessed vets being reviled, rejected, misunderstood, and misdiagnosed,(PTSD entered the DSM in 1980). Many of these men and women isolated themselves, rebelled and eventually drained our society of its most precious resource; their productive lives. Will history repeat itself for this new generation of veterans? This must not come to pass again

There is a sacred place here in Arizona that is duty bound to prevent and ease the pain of transition to polite society. It is called the Merritt Center in Payson, Arizona. The Veteran Program that is now in its fourth year has been the source of healing and camaraderie for combat veterans from 7 Wars. From WWll to Tekrit the Merritt Center has hosted men and women who have one thing in common; War.

Since its founding in 1987, the Merritt Center, a non-profit organization has been working with individuals seeking positive ways to move past traumas that have disrupted their lives. The Center has a virtual potpourri of offerings from Sweat Lodges to native talking circles and deep massage therapy so as to get back in touch with the body and its ways of holding pain and emotion. The professionals who volunteer their time are all highly skilled in alternative techniques that bring a sense of closure to past bodily and emotional disruptions.

By observing the needs of the new returning veterans, by way of there trained mentors who are spread across Arizona, and noting the sad history of neglect by their predecessors- the Center has chosen to offer a free program for returning veterans of war.. A series of 4 weekend retreats over the course of 5 months, separate ones for men and women bring a perspective of healing and renewal to the veteran who will most likely not find anything quite so potent inside conventional medicine and therapy.

Over these four weekends the participants are given presentations about the core nature of trauma, its signs and symptoms, and guided at all times by combat veteran mentors who are graduates to the program, many of whom have been helping their comrades for years. A few of the techniques that are learned are; trauma release exercises, body energy work, guided visualizations, drumming, journaling, and Native American talking circles that are quite popular with the vets. Concluding the program is a Sweat Lodge ceremony to purge the toxins of the mind, body and spirit. At the final session the veterans new and home families gather in harmony to celebrate their strong bond and new commitment to healthy living.

The four weekend program seeks to achieve the following goals.

* learning to recognize and release the triggers of trauma
* releasing the negative experiences of combat
* learning new skills to reduce nightmares, flashbacks, and hostile behavior
*reprogramming the mind to expect and trust safety
*creating a new “band of brothers and sisters” who will share the lessons and spread the word
to others vets returning to civilian life.

The nearby ancient Pueblo Ruins coupled with the spa, forest paths, flower garden, hammocks, meditation areas and a ton of quiet places, makes the Merritt Center one of the most unique places in all the west. I for one have been enriched beyond words with the honor to be one of the mentors for this most blessed program that is 100% FREE

For information, contact Betty Merritt at 928-474-4268 or visit the website at;”www.MERRITTCENTER. ORG”

Literary Assist From a Pro

Each day I wake and think about the intention of this Post, I know I am at risk for feedback that…. well lets say, might not be from the book of Miss Manners. Unfortunately, that is the state of nation, with the exception of many of our own Bloggers, who have clearly been most supportive of each other since this site launched back in the first week in July.

This quote from E.B. White summarizes the emotions that flow through me each day,as I contemplate what may be worth publishing for the good of the order and the furtherance of civility.

“If the world were merely seductive, that would be easy. If it were challenging, that would be no problem. Then I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day”

I suspect this may capture the sentiment of many retirees as myself.ALSA dot org

The project here at “TucsonCitizen.com”, does however, provide an existential sense of usefulness for myself and apparently for a slew of veterans who chime into this site, as the viewings of “Veteran Veritas” are amongst the highest of all the Blogs.

“Whooda known?”

Thank you fellow vets, friends and families for riding with us in this new blogosphere adventure.

Post Traumatic Stress a Christian View

SPIRITUALLY DEFINED

An event or series of events either induced by war, sexual trauma, physical abuse,or accident that is outside the fruit of the spirit.( Galatians 5:22-23). The experience results in a deep wounding of the heart;(Lamentations 1:20, 2:11, 3;13-18) creating the formation of an idol of thought, frequently defined as intrusive thoughts, causing change in behavior and attitudes.(Psalm 135;15-18, Psalm 115; 5-8, Galations 5;19-21). This behavior inspires a false worship creating a separation from God(Isaiah 59;1-8) which leads to a broken heart and spiritual torment.(Job 18;5-21).
The condition of PTSD has worsened and become more prevalent in recent times, as a result of both war and an increasing violent society.
I know this small divergence from the clinical approach, which I know well, may not resonate with all readers, but for the few it does. let it be. Psychology can only take one so far in the pilgrimage of awareness. A spiritual dimension is needed to bring a lasting contentment or the peace that surpasses all understanding.

Advocacy or Veracity

Okay Citizens of the World, and the astute and quick to respond TucsonCitizen.com bloggers and commenters, I anticipate that I will be nabbed here for being “partisan”, as some of our fans see it everywhere to the point where I think that during a Monday Night Football match they would want the game to be stopped because the opponent does not agree with them, and are therefore ‘partisan!’ Whatever.

Here is my educated and small world take on Health Care, colored with 34 years industry experience. VA System, St.Marys and UMC Mental Health, while in Nursing School, and as a Veterans Benefits Counselor.

This is small stuff folks so be gentle now, the summer of aberration is over.

All the flap about the Government destroying free market enterprise does not pan out. Most all Health Care markets are a near monopoly pre-determined by the giant HMO”s who pretty much decide who will take a certain market and leave another alone. Retired health care professionals will testify to this gimmick. It is very much like the old Mob families. Except the mob was managed better.
But here’s the thing. The VA Home Loan program, which I know intimately, has been sitting side by side with FHA el al, since the 1940’s. Has it dented, damaged or demeaned the competition in the home loan industry? No, not one iota. In fact it has bolstered the entire competitive nature of the home loan industry, and regulated itself so as to not have the internal fraud, and disgusting greed and malice that we have seen this past 5 years.

I beseech you, who do you want as your trustworthy Uncle in this scenario, Uncle Sam, or Uncle Guido? The argument of the Government,(which is still us, last time I woke) destroying Capitalism in America is pure nonsense. Even the icon, Reagan knew this well as he vociferously defended deficit spending. Without the Government intervening, Capitalism is but a paper dream, especially now.

And last, from my small world, I just want this one on the record, as my bookie told me to!

In the next few weeks or so, we are going to witness the VA Health Care system come off the bench and enter the health care game as a ringer. They are going to make some 3 point shots from, “downtown” as the sportscasters say, and blow partisanship right out of the saddle.

Not unlike Ted Kennedy’s Title lX Legislation for gender equity in sports that passed 35 years ago, no Donkey or Elephant will ever squawk about their daughter getting an athletic scholarship for a College sport that heretofore they never would have been awarded. My cousin Christine Caliway got one for the UofA Basketball team. This never would have happened without that fine bi-partisan legislation. Something tells me this debate is similar. If 24/7 Cable television took a 30 day break like Congress does, it may happen faster.

So, stay tuned, I say the VA is coming to a theater near you.

Survey of Health Care Experiences of Patients/SHEP

Tucson VA Hospital
Tucson VA Hospital
This survey is also used for our own Veterans Administration Hospital here in Tucson. I thought the results of the survey were worthy of adulation, and a bit of bragging. While all the cities being compared would be of little interest to our readers, our comparison to the National results are noteworthy.

Inpatient Satisfaction: National 62.1% Tucson VA 71.1%

Outpatient Satisfaction: National 55.6% Tucson VA 59.7%

Provider Wait less than 20 minutes: National 78.9% Tucson VA 85.9%

Getting Care quickly when needed: National 78.7% Tucson VA 80.6%

These are SHEP scores from October 2008 to March 2009 provided via Health Care Trends the newsletter for the Southern Arizona Health Care System.

It is no wonder so many winter veteran visitors wait until they come to Tucson for their health care. It appears that not all Government health care is so maligned.

Spin Codes on Veterans DD-214

j0414112Back in March of 1976 a lawsuit was filed in the US District Court, Northern District of New York. A veteran named Edwin Cosby discovered that he even though he had an Honorable Discharge he had a derogatory spin code in his separation papers known as the DD-214.

Virtually unknown to all veterans of Armed Forces, the D.O.D. began inserting these descriptive, cryptic codes as far back as June of 1956. Instruction Memo 1336.3 ordered the military departments to insert a coded number on the documents used for employment references.

In 1974 the D.O.D testified at a Congressional hearing that only a couple hundred thousand documents had a code number and that the Spin coding system would be abolished. That never happened and by 1977 over 20 million veterans with Honorable Discharges had a spin coded number which they were never aware of and mostly likely are not to this day.

Congress attempted to pass a law regarding the use of spin codes, yet all proposed legislation has failed. Big Brother is alive and well.

The use of these codes can seriously hamper the veterans efforts to find gainful employment, obtain a loan, or procure insurance. Banks, life insurance companies, State and Federal agencies, and major corporations use these codes. Lists of the codes have been sent to Federal Aviation Administration, Housing and Urban Development and the Office of Personnel Management.
And we are worried about socialism!

Veterans can, however, ask to have spin codes removed from their DD-214.

To examine a list of the codes go to “http:www.landscaper.net/discharge.htm” or visit “http://veterancourtcodes.com”

Last Call/ All Hands On Deck for Arizona Combat Veterans

Tomorrow night, Saturday the 25th at Hotel Congress 6-10pm is our benefit concert supporting the Returning Veteran Program at the Merritt Retreat Center. The band “Still Cruisin” accompanied by the “Shere Delites” are performing for us. Veterans are free. Donations accepted for Merritt Center 501-C-3. See “MerrittCenter.org”
What was once known as shell shock and now as Post Traumatic Stress, has come to the foreground in recent years as veterans of war transition to civilian life. We have learned much about this gap of time that can be critical to the quality of life of the veteran. The Merritt Center four week basic training for recovery and healing was designed with great care and compassion by one woman named Betty Merritt.
The Merritt Center and Lodge is a non-profit retreat center in Star Valley, Payson, Az. It was founded in 1987 by Betty for individual or group renewal and empowerment skills. In talking to veteran friends Betty learned that “combat is nasty stuff.’ Her dream was to ease the pain and anguish of these men and women and prevent the self destructive behavior that families witnessed in the Vietnam Veteran who was seldom welcomed in polite company. The program is spread over several months and attempts to provide new structures of self and a release from the traumatic triggers and residual symptoms of combat stress. The staff are all volunteers and provide their services gratis to the vets. From professional therapists to the cooks, everyone is a volunteer. The family like setting and the freedom of the forest creates a perfect, safe setting to simply let go. The validation and trust that comes with a group of vets who all have one thing in common is the source of a level of healing that cannot be found in a traditional setting. Having been involved in the program as a graduate, and now as a Mentor for 3 years, I can attest to the efficacy of this very unique and sacred place.
With a spiritual focus the participants are able to look at what brings them solace as they drop some of the triggers that loop them into the “fight or flight” syndrome, that frequently lead to vocational and marital problems.
While the program was designed for the OEF/OIF and Afghan veteran, it was discovered that there was still some healing to be done in the general veteran population. Which is to say that the participants are coming from all wars. One evening we had 5 wars around the supper table! Where in American history has that ever occurred? It is quite clear that the effects of war are timeless and have no respect for rank or position in life. To have that experience with a band of brothers is simply transforming.
The Returning Veterans Program costs the Merritt Center approximately $150 for each of the 4 weekends. With the help of the volunteers and private donations the retreat remains free to any combat veteran of any war. We hope to keep it that way forever.
There is also a program for Women that will include the wives of the military. The woman’s program just completed their second retreat.
The dates for the Men’ Retreat beginning in 2010 are; January 15-17. March 5-7. May 14-16. July 9-11.
The dates for the Women’s Retreat are: Feb. 5-7. April 16-18. June 4-6. July 30th-Aug 1st.

Call for application at 928-474-4268. or email “betty@merrittcenter.org.”

The famous thousand yard stare
The famous thousand yard stare